Reflections on 1982

Was I always a seeker?
A soul for sale?
Did you purchase me with your blood?
Are you the highest bidder?
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Down by the river in Devon
Under the fur coat
Held together with safety pins.
Wet face again,
Heart torn again.
Benson and Hedges provide some relief.
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Smoke will you soothe my soul?
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What if I'm never loved?
What was I bringing to those boys,
That latest man child
Was I too much,
Or just not enough?

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Was I always a seeker
Looking for love?
What if you never found me
Down by the river in Devon?
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Truth is I'm still just fur and skin
Held together with safety pins,
Selling my soul
To the highest bidder

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